Didn't have the best time growing up. I suspect my M has NPD. She has massive issues with people who are in any way confident, so growing up I was continually put down and made to feel worthless. Over the years I've had a lot of horrible friendships and relationships which have added to my low opinion of myself.
Things have improved since my late 20s. I decided one day that I'd had enough and started to remove the toxic people from my life.
10 years on and I'm nearly 40, have been with DH for 9 years and he's lovely, kind and caring. I don't have many friends but the ones I have are some of the nicest people I've ever met. I don't see much of my M now but don't have the energy to cut her out of my life completely.
I guess I just still feel 'damaged' in some way. I lack any real confidence or self belief. I struggle making new friends and tend to keep people at arms length. I have one DD who is amazing but the love I feel for her scares me so much sometimes.
I've had counselling, CBT and hypnotherapy but nothing seems to change my deepest feelings about myself.
Sorry if this isn't making sense I've never really tried to explain it before. Does anyone have any advice/ experience of this?
I'm also pregnant with DC2 so probably more emotional than I usually am. I just want to be a normal mother and a good role model for my children so they don't grow up like me. Any advice appreciated- I have been told to just learn to love myself but have no idea how.
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How do you repair the damage from your childhood?
SleepyHay · 29/08/2016 08:53
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