Our marriage has been in a very bad way for at least a year - lots of reasons, but no unforgivable behaviour on either side.
DH had a privileged but unloving childhood, and we're in a spiral neither of us seem to be able to break. Something happens (often a minor thing) and I snap at him; he then retreats into his shell. Years ago I used to coax him out again, but I've lost patience with that, and either stomp off or go on moaning at him. He feels hugely got at and criticised (not unreasonably); I feel as if I am always cast as the bully. His instinct in any difficult situation is to shut down and to cut off communication - we've had a lot of conflict lately, and communication is awful between us.
We're in a situation now where neither of us feels at all loved by the other. He longs for physical comfort (sex, but also cuddles), which I can't give when I feel so alienated from him. I long for him to talk to me, to spend time with me, and he feels so kicked about that he won't/can't do this.
For lots of reasons, I'm still not willing to say that we've reached the end, but I have no idea what to do. I completely admit that I'm critical and irritable, and that I don't give him credit for the things he does for us all. But I feel so totally overwhelmed by emotional demands from him and the 3 kids that I am just about beyond breaking point, and I don't have the energy or patience or kindness that he wants, and that our relationship needs.
So here it is: he's kind but completely withdrawn (sits at the dinner table and doesn't say a word kind of withdrawn); I'm tense and irritable and judgemental, and we're both miserable.
What can I do? I can always think of millions of things I'd like DH to do, but when it comes to me, I'm stuck. How do I learn once again to be more patient with him? Less critical? Less cross? How do I learn to notice the many good kind things he does, and let the annoying ones wash over me?
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How to stop being so judgemental and irritable
cloudysummerdays · 19/08/2016 21:13
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