Should i tell him?

[mistakemaker7]

Husband left back in October last year, we stopped communicating and marriage broke down, although we both said we loved each other.

He went a bit wild compared to what he was like, out drinking, clubbing etc, I didn't bother, not really my scene.

In January I had heard a few stories about him kissing other women, parties with other woman but not sure if sex was involved.

I got quite close to a male colleague and I slept with him Feb/Mar time.

We stayed friends, he wanted a relationship but I wasn't in the right place to offer this to him.

H and I have started speaking very slowly again and im panicking about whether I should tell him I have had sex with another man? Technically I was single as he walked out and left me but I don't think he will take this well at all.

I didn't think we would get back together but now there could be a possibility?

I have mucked up haven't I!

[SoleBizzz]

None of his business

[HeddaGarbled]

No you haven't mucked up at all. You were free and single. He was clearly enjoying being single, putting himself about and out there. You slept with one man. He has absolutely no right to judge you or be angry with you.

If he is the sort of man who would judge you or be angry with you, I think you should rethink the getting back together. Have a good think about why you split and how he treated you at the time of the split. Has he changed? Is he sorry? If nothing's changed, what's to stop this all going wrong again?

[TheNotoriousPMT]

If he has any sense at all he won't ask.

In the grand scheme of fixing whatever-the things-were-that-led-to-the-breakdown-of-your-marriage, the two of you having fooled around with others while you were separated is an irrelevance.

Not to be flippant, but "We were on a break!"

[AnyFucker]

What's it got to do with him ?

And of course he was dipping his own wick

If he "won't take it well" then wtf would you consider getting back with someone who would resent you having your own fun. Is only he allowed to do that ?

[Finola1step]

You were and are separated at his choosing. So you were free to do as you pleased.

The only reason to tell him would be if there was a lasting consequence (e.g. baby or std) from the ONS.

[mistakemaker7]

That kind of makes me feel a bit better.

The guilt I have been feeling is immense.

I don't think he will take it well if I choose to tell him but from his reaction maybe I will see what I will feel more.

[Resilience16]

To be blunt-you were both separated? So none of his business.
I'm interested as why you are now thinking of getting back together tho. What has changed or is going to change? If nothing then you will end up repeating this little drama again a few months or years down the line.
Think very carefully if that's what you really want.

[FolderReformedScruncher]

Op I think you should think this through again purely on what you have put in your posts here. You sound really surrendered to him. Is he really worth it? You are anxious again already and you aren't back with him yet. He doesn't sound like much of a prize to me. Has he gone to look for someone he considers better than you, none of those were interested in him so he has come back but is dressing it up as something else?

[0hCrepe]

If you're already worrying about his reaction you shouldn't get back with him.

[Scarydinosaurs]

You would be naive to think he wasn't having sex with the women he was meeting. He left you. You could have sex with whoever you wanted.

[MephistoMarley]

I don't think you should get back together. Your fear of his reaction tells me a lot about what the dynamic is between you. You know he's been shagging about, but you're still scared of his reaction to you sleeping with someone else when you were broken up?
If you do get back together - never tell him, not his business. And don't let him question and pester you about it either,

[DelphiniumBlue]

Why would you tell him? What you do is none of his business any more. He left you 6 months ago, but you're now considering taking him back. If you do, ( doesn't sound like a good idea BTW) do it on your terms, not his. You seem to be saying that if you do tell him, it might affect his decision to get back with you, or he'll unreasonably give you a hard time, even though he's been acting like he's single himself.
He doesn't sound very nice, tbh.

[Iliveinalighthousewiththeghost]

No you shouldn't tell him. It's none of his business even if you were shagging the Duke of York, as its equally none of your business as to whom he's knocking off.
You seem like you feel you're still answerable to him.
If a reconciliation is on the cards, great, but. There's no air to clear. At present you're both free agents.

[Isetan]

I can understand why you'd want to tell him, presumably you don't want to start this new chapter in your relationship with secrets. However, It doesn't sound like your OH shares your ideals and his probable negative reaction, would probably confirm this. Which begs the question, why are you reconciling with someone who you believe will be a two faced hypocrite upon hearing the truth? Reconciliations should be a new start not more of the same old bullshit.

[adora1]

If you have heard stories about him with other women of course he's had sex, please don't be so naïve.

Why are you worried about having had a short relationship with someone, sounds like your husband has been out on the rampage.

Grass greener no more is it?

[SandyY2K]

I think it depends on what the terms of your seperation were if any?

Did you have discussions about it being for space or for a fixed period of time to see how you both felt?

Did you discuss being free to date other people?

Did you see it that the marriage was over and talk about divorce?

Considering he was the one to walk out, he shouldn't expect you to have been twiddling your thumbs waiting for him.

[SandyY2K]

Also wanted to say what's changed now to make you think it will work?

Have you discussed counselling or done anything to fix the underlying issues from before?

[mistakemaker7]

Thank you all. You are all right. I have been sat worrying and making myself ill about what he will think, yet he is the one who left me and DD.

He went about enjoying himself and pubbing it every weekend.

And now to top it off, he isn't speaking to me again over something someone else has said about our situation, like its my fault!! Grrrr

[MephistoMarley]

God. Don't go back, ever!

[pinkyredrose]

Would you really want to get back with him? Sometimes who walks out on his wife and child, who'd not like it if you'd seen anyone else even though he did and who stops speaking to you for nothing? He sounds very immature and frankly I think you could do a lot better. Oh and you have absolutely nothing to feel guilty for.

[AnyFucker]

What the hell are you thinking ?

[FolderReformedScruncher]

Have a look at the Freedom Program OP. That will give you a bit of perspective.

[Fairylea]

Run!

[SandyY2K]

Remember what Einstein said about the definition of insanity?

[pinkyredrose]

I meant 'someone' not 'sometimes' in my previous post obs! OP I can't imagine why you think getting back with him would be a good idea. Why do you think it'll be a good idea?