Hi all,
It's my first time posting in relationships. I am a regular but have nc. I'm quite sad to be posting in here.
My husband and I have been together 12 years, married for almost 4 years and have a 2 year old son. Prior to our son coming along we had a very carefree life, but sensible all the same. We enjoyed holidays, evenings out and time together aswell as time on our own to enjoy our own hobbies.
Our son was planned and VERY much wanted. I have suffered from depression prior to and since he came along. Lately I have become obsessive over things and find myself trying to control who, what why and when. I have also begun to find myself becoming very agrumentative and also dominant in the parenting duo.
This has been bubbling along for some time but came to a head a few weeks back. My husband, like me, can be very stubborn over things but unlike me, keeps things to himself until he explodes. He told me that he feels since we got married, I have changed and become argumentative against him. That since our son came along I have become controlling and also will often undermine him when he does/says something to our son and that he feels he cannot parent him because I override him.
I do not mean to be this way. It got to a point approx 2 months ago where my husband cried (he never does this) and said he didn't know what to do anymore and basically said he was undecided whether to leave. I tried really hard in the interim but a few weeks later, it came to head again and he said once more that he feels like he did and that he doesnt know whether he can continue to be treated how I treat him.
I dont know I am doing it and whilst I try my best, I get angry when I feel he is telling me what to do. I can't think of the exact example but he had said something along the lines of on Saturday we'll do X, rather than on Sat, shall we do X which had annoyed me. I also find I snap back when his tone is off with me.
I don't know what to do. I'm at risk of losing my marriage. I really don't know what to do. I cannot change who I am but who I am is making me risk it all.
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At risk of losing my marriage
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ginlemontonic · 15/07/2016 15:00
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