Hi all,
This is my first post on Mumsnet. In fact, I joined because I needed to ask people who seem sensible for views on something specific.
Situation is as follows. Been with my boyfriend for about a year. He is loving, supportive, wonderful. My father is old and has recently had a lot of heart problems. Last year he nearly died (just before I met my bf) and it was a tough time for the family. In the last few weeks, dad's been in and out of hospital for a variety of things, some heart-related, some other stuff. I have been down to see him there and help mum out at weekends, also a few nights during the week (I have a full-time job in London and a cat that needs looking after!).
Every time I get a call from mum or a brother about dad I can feel my heart begin to race and feel physically sick. It's hard seeing him, this great strong man from my childhood, looking all little and frail and barely conscious in a hospital gown. I know though that every child goes through this with their parents - I am hardly unusual!
So I end up ringing my boyfriend and texting him, just to hear his voice. I never cry on the phone to him, never really need to because just speaking to him for 5 minutes and hearing his calming words and voice and love makes it feel better. I have friends who I am close to and can talk about nearly everything with but they are all having babies/getting married/have their own problems.
I ring him maybe once or twice a day, whenever dad gets significantly better or worse (so every 3/4 days). Obviously we text each other in between. But I feel guilty and worred for relying on him. I'm used to being independent (own flat, own cat, nice group of friends etc.) and he fell in love with the happy, confident person that I usually am and was when we met. I worry that I am relying on him too much - that I am being needy (though I do need him) and clingy. And that he will go off me because right now, I am worried. And I feel so comfortable with him that I let the worry and the need show.
I would really appreciate advice or views on: am I relying on him too much? We've only been going out a year. Or tips for how to cope with an elderly relative or... well, I suppose I just needed to put this down in writing a bit as well.
Thank you if you got to the end of my very long spiel!
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How much should I lean on the boyfriend when my dad's ill
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cfje · 07/07/2016 14:43
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