I feel like the last 18 months have been so hard and I'm feeling low more and more after always being a very optimistic/happy person.
I got pregnant unplanned with number 3 then while on Mat leave my car died and became a write off, my baby hardly slept, my childcare for when I returned to work all fell through so dh and I agreed I would be a SAHM ( we would have paid out more I earned and we couldn't afford to do that.)Â
3 weeks after handing in my notice to my job I enjoyed I found out dh had been having an affair with a work colleague so after being devastated I was now was in a vulnerable position as regards no income. Dh moved out despite not wanting to and I became a single mother to 3 on benefits.
I've applied and been rejected for jobs, which has knocked my self esteem even lower plus I haven't lost as much weight as I wanted to and just eat pointlessly. I'm struggling with the house, skint and am hardly cooking nutritious meals anymore.Â
Dh wants to reunite but because I don't he says that it's me splitting up the family and even though I know it was his fault I feel so selfish that I'm putting my needs before my kids i should be able to put up and shut up.Â
I just feel sad or numb a lot of the time, I've got lots of friends but horribly so many of them have also had an unbelievable shit year for different reasons so don't feel like I can burden them with my ongoing sadness.Â
I feel better writing it down I feel so weak when I'm struggling and am ashamed of myself.
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whensitmyturn · 05/07/2016 17:27
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