Think this may be a long post so thank you for reading. I'll try give all the info.
DH and I have been together 6 years, married for 2 with 2dc (2.5yrs and 6mnths). Generally things are really good, dh works ridiculously hard, is truly a brilliant dad and most of the time we get on really well, have a laugh together etc. The problem is mostly with me, I am really insecure and think I come across as needy and controlling. Thinking about it I think this started after our first dc was born, hence we weren't going out together anymore and I rarely went out but dh still wanted to have a life (understandable obviously). He doesn't go out very often (maybe once or twice a month) but even though he's asked me in advance I feel myself tensing up as he's getting ready to go, I ask him to give me a time he will be home and tell him not to drink too much. This usually means he leaves after an argument so I sit at home stressing the entire time he's gone. The minute it gets to the time he says he will be home I ring him asking where he is and he is usually on his way home. I then quiz him about where he went, what he drank, who he saw etc and usually find something to get upset about. Everything I've written so far makes me sound like such a fucking idiot. Here's the thing though: I do not for one second think he's cheated however he has lied (in order to stop me starting an argument), I only had two beers (when it's obvious he's had much more), I'll be home at 11pm (doesn't get home til midnight), I didn't go to a strip club on my stag do (later found out he had, I do believe it's a one off) etc etc. The thing is we're in a total catch 22 now, he goes out, I have a meltdown, he goes out again and doesn't want to talk about it as he knows I'll pick it apart and find an issue, I don't want him to go out, he wants to go out more. I've admitted I've got a problem but he doesn't understand and thinks I'm just being a weirdo! I want to relax and as I know he's not up to no good (just drinking too much and staying out later than I'd like) I wish I could just chill out but I also need him to appreciate (even if I'm being irrational) that I need him to help me with this and stop with the little lies, come home by the time we agreed etc. He just doesn't get this and sees it as my problem. Do you think couples counselling would help? Or should i go to counselling alone? Or has anyone got any advice as to how i can get him to understand? Thanks for reading if you've got this far!!
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