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[Angryasfuck]

I'm a long time lurker, signed up to ask for help.
I have two DDS and a DF, for the past few months my anger is getting out of control, I shout, throw and smash things and say horrible things. I feel terrible after but I can't stop myself, now after not talking to my df all weekend I wanted to kill myself as I'm useless and no good to anyone.
I went as far as writing a suicide note and getting a lot of pills out but I couldn't go through with it then I was ok eating chocolate and browsing on here like nothing happened!
I rang Samaritans but hung up now my question is if I go to the doctors will my children be in danger of getting taking off me? I wouldn't harm a hair on their head!
Or if anyone would like to guess what the hell is wrong with me? I'm in danger of pushing my fiance of ten years away, my eldest doesn't like when I shout and my youngest who is 1 gets very upset when I start shouting and breaking things ie cups not her toys btw
Thanks

[merville]

Have you ruled out PMDD?

[merville]

What sort of contraception are you on?
Is this worst in the 2 weeks leading up to your period, does it lessen considerably a day or two into your period?
(Though sometimes PMDD can be all month or vary).

[Angryasfuck]

I don't have periods I'm on carrazette

[Angryasfuck]

Cerazette

[glenthebattleostrich]

Both types of pill were horrendous for me.

Cerazette had me seriously considering stepping in front of a train. It was the worst period of my life.

[Angryasfuck]

Iv been on it for years now, il certainly look into though. I just want to be normal!! See iv tried many pills and the implant. The coil scares me I must admit

[Angryasfuck]

Just to add I also think I suffer from anxiety and have days when I dont want to go out the house.

[FeckArseIndustries]

Depression or post-natal depression. Go to the GP. It's very common, they will help, they won't take the children - that's the depression/anxiety making you think that.

[Angryasfuck]

Can you have depression if you are sometimes happy?

[coco1810]

I am on Cerazette it also caused me to have "mood swings"more like ready to finish off all humanity. I take mine at night now and fine on them.

[Angryasfuck]

I also take mine at night, always have done....

[BlitheringIdiot]

This definitely sounds like depression to me. I agree with Feck.

[Evelyn72]

Yes depression comes in many guises, you can have mood swings where you feel elated, and then crash. This can be in the form of anger, aggression. I have been through this and still battling long term depression. Make an appointment to see your GP.

[Angryasfuck]

Thankyou il phone tomorrow, it will be hard explaining how I feel without breaking into a sobbing mess! I had "depression" when I was younger, had to see a councillor, don't think it went well. I can barely remember it. My memory is terrible

[merville]

No experience of cerazette but did see this woman's experience from a quick google;

forums.netdoctor.co.uk/discussion/59577/cerazette-turned-me-into-a-raging-angry-irrational-person

She says that she's discovered Mini pills may be unsuitable for women who've suffered from depression.

[Angryasfuck]

Just had a read, the weight rings true, iv slowly been putting on weight and find it hard to lose no matter what I do

[WiMoChi]

No advice as such but awesome that you've sought help here and you can see there is a problem. Way to go x

[Angryasfuck]

Thanks WiMoChi