Eldest son is 26 lives in the same town, I had him at 17 married his dad had a daughter divorces his dad as he was an alcoholic had an abusive relationship after that and when son was 4 met husband I'm still with and we had 4 more children and hubby treats them all the same.
Son has always been hard work and has had most of my attention due to the way he is. At 14 I needed a break from him and he stayed at my sil who lived a few doors down, ds tells people I threw him out when I didn't I just needed a break.
When he was 16 hubby was having treatment for cancer I had 4 children and a young baby and I was running hubbys business and d's stopped going to college and just lazed about the house all day and when I got in from work he ignored me left his mess to go and meet his friends. This is when I did ask him to leave (making sure he has somewhere to go )
He has temporally moved back in and out a few times, 2 years ago he attacked my daughter in her flat as he was living with her then and he broke her finger and spat in her face, he then married and be spat in his husband cousins face.
He starts a discussion then when you try and put an. Opinion in he shouts you down, this is how he starts most arguments, I really don't know why he does this and I have tried googling and it sound like something called intermittent explosive disorder.
Last week I had my mum over and my daughter comes for lunch when she finishes work and drives my mum home, I messaged son to see if he was joining us but I got no reply.He arrived about 4pm and asked to use the phone to contact work as he is off sick at the moment, he then asked daughter to wait for him to get a call back as he also wanted a lift home, he started a discussion about the eu and I didn't offer my opinion as I could see him going on one, he informed my mum that she should not vote due to her age and she said she won't vote if he didn't want her to!
My daughter tried to put her opinion across but he just shouted at her and she never got to finish what she was trying to say.
He carried on ranting and my daughter decided to go taking my mum with her.
Son carried on his discussion and I was trying not to get to involved, then he said if we leave the eu our police would have guns, all i said was "some police here already do have guns"
He is 6.5 foot tall and he towered over me screaming at me calling me the c word and saying that I think I'm educated but I'm not and I'm as thick as shit, I told him it was time to go and I got up and started to take things out to the kitchen to get away from him but he kept following me leaning over me shouting at me.
Then he said what a shit mother I was and that I hate him and his life is shit because of me, he then jabbed his nail into my forehead, I put up my hand and told him enough and to leave, he pressed his head up against my hand while still screaming at me and I just pushed him away, with that be he started screaming louder that I hit his jaw(he recently had surgery but I know I didn't touch his jaw) he then slapped me round the head and punched my head knocking me into the wall, I then started screaming at him to get out, he said some more things I'm not sure what and then spat in my face he had hold of my arm at this point as I was trying to get away and he dug his nails in so hard he drew blood.
He yanked my arm so much and threw me around like a rag doll, he let go and he grabbed my 10 year olds phone and said he was going to phone the police as I assaulted him, I got my phone to phone my husband as I knew he would be on his way home from work but he was still 20 minutes away so I also phoned the police as I just wanted him to leave. While on the phone to the police he carried on screaming at me telling me what I am and be spat in my face again, when I had the chance I grabbed my 2 younger son's and got out of the house while waiting for the police. My 10 year old was hysterical the younger one is autistic and he was surprising calm. The police arrived and they wanted me to make a statement but I told them he has been through enough recently and I made excuses for him but I realized he was like this before but I still couldn't bring myself to press charges I just wanted him to leave, hubby got back from work in the middle of all this and son wanted to speak to him and he said that he was sorry he dug his nails into me. He left causing problems for my other son on his way home.
I have put nothing of this on social media as it's not the done thing and I have blocked him from everywhere as I'm in shock that he can be so vile r as he is always preaching about spreading the love etc. Now everyone knows about how he feels about me as well meaning friends and family have sent me what he has written, including that he doesn't want me to die he just wants me to get cancer and suffer. Only close friends and family know about the attack as I have bruises and my arm is in a sling as I have tissue damage.
I'm embarrassed and I really don't know what I did to cause this. I love him dearly and I would do anything for any of my children and now I am finding myself on a different ground and I want nothing more to do with him even tho I love him. I can't stop crying over this.
Sorry for all the spelling mistakes but this took ages to write as I'm right handed and that's the one I can't use.
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6demandingchildren · 21/06/2016 11:53
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