Ok I might be here a while so please bare with me.
Me and OH have been together for just over 3 years now and have a lovely 3 month old dd together. I also have ds from previous who is 7. Anyway whilst I was pregnant I discovered while quickly using his phone to search for something discovered he had visited a few porn sites in his history. It made me feel sick and really shit about myself, especially being pregnant. I never even had a clue he was into this stuff. Anyway we discussed and he said it was a one off ok whatever. So since then I've been slightly crazy in checking his phone and 10 days after having our dd discovered he had been on a website for no strings sex where you put your number in and see who's in your area and is up for it. There was also a text saying candy is 3 miles away from you etc(from the website) so he definitely put in his number. I was devastated and when I confronted him he said he was drunk and it just popped up and he was curious. I know he didn't meet anyone that night because I was next door but the fact he was even curious killed me inside. So anyway, 3 months on and although we talked and I forgive him, well that's just it I feel like I can't forgive him. Every time we argue I wanna bring it up, every time a pair of tits pop up on my tv I wanna cry because I know he's looking at them and after two kids mine do not look like that anymore. I know it sounds crazy but him watching all that porn has really affected my self confidence and I feel like a crazy women. Little things like I'll sit there complaining I'm to fat and he won't say nothing like oh don't be silly your fine just nothing. Just feeling really shit anyone else ?
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Pinklemonade16 · 14/06/2016 23:14
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