To cut a long story short, my husband moved out about 8 months ago, said we needed a break, this was completely out of the blue. After about 6 weeks he told me he was seeing someone else. We had been together for 14 years, married for 8 and have two children. When he left I was devastated, I felt like I would never feel normal again but eventually I started feeling a bit better, then he told me about the other woman and I was back to square one, completely devastated, lost lots of week didn’t sleep etc. I have always stayed strong for my children, answered their questions etc, they are very young and don’t really understand. I got stronger as the weeks and months went by although I was still devastated and missed him so much. I would still see him most days and after the initial awkwardness between us when he left, we started spending time together with the children, going on days out etc (he was still seeing the other woman all through this time). Eventually he told me he wanted to come home, he realised he had made the biggest mistake of his life, would love me forever etc He came home for about a week, it was quite literally all hearts and flowers during that time, he put his wedding ring back on (I didn’t) wanted to tell the children he was moving back (I didn’t let him) etc Then he told me he missed the OW, he said he didn’t know which one of us he wanted so after about 2 weeks of chopping and changing his mind (it was only me that knew he was doing that, OW didn’t) he eventually chose her. He told me I was the best friend he ever had and he didn’t want to lose that, I told him I wanted all or nothing. He still tries to start conversations with me about things that have nothing to do with the kids I ignore him but it’s so hard. I miss him so much, despite everything he has done. He and the OW are now getting a house together, despite the fact they have only been together 6 months and they both seem to have just been able to forget that he has been back to me during this time. I wish I could stop thinking about them and concentrate on me but it’s so difficult, I hate the fact that they get to have this happy life, while I am on my own. Anyone any experience of something similar and how you got over it or how long it took?
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Is he having a decent amount of contact with your dc?
Does this allow you some 'me' time?
Need to really start being kind to yourself. Small acts of kindness to you - during your 'me' time. You are doing well even though it may not feel like it.
Again, thanks for your replies, I really appreciate them.
He sees the children most days but hasn't been having them overnight for about 6 weeks because of his living situation. That means when he does see them it's mostly at my house and of course although they are my world, I feel like I don't get a proper break to recharge, between the children and working, I feel it's never ending and am pretty much exhausted most of the time, I don't know where I would be without my parents. The children have just been introduced to the OW so that when they have their house together they can go and stay with them, and we can get some sort of proper arrangement made. She has no kids and apparently has no issue with them spending lots of time there 
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