Or more specifically the things I've said, out of context.
Basically we are having a bad month. External things such as unfinished home, me juggling business with being a full time sahm, and lack of money have been causing rows.
I just opened a notebook to write a shopping list only to discover lists of what I've said in these fights. I own that. That's what I've said but I just don't know why he's writing them down in this way. They make me sound monstrous but as they don't refer to what he's said to illicit that from me I'm very confused to
- Why he is doing this?
- What I should do now I know?
I've got no problem with if he needed to keep a diary to help him make sense of why we're arguing but this seems set up to purely paint me as the baddie?
I'm really not. My main issue has been not working together, being under appreciated as I'm doing the best I can, and wondering if this is the end of things purely because he has simply been angry and not empathetic? From his perspective I fully understand how an untidy (but Very clean) house and a lack of funds would make him feel as I am fed up of it to.
I thought this was totally fixable but now I wonder if he is gearing up for leaving and playing dirty?