I'm driving my self mental here.
My ex left in January for ow. When he first left he said it was because he didn't love me anymore....
We had a few arguments and he then threw in my face that I was emotionally abusing him.
At the time he left I was 32 weeks pregnant and had a 2 year old to deal with. I was already suffering from depression (wasn't getting help at this point) and the thought of suicide crossed my mind. I openly spoke to my ex at the time (we were on great terms) He was supporting me with it (helping with out son so I could go to the doctors).
I am driving myself mad thinking was I emotionally abusive? Was me moaning that I would come home from work to a messy house whilst he was on the xbox talking to his friends ignoring ds being abusive?
Was telling him I was unhappy about how he was looking after our ds wasn't good enough (not getting his bum changed for hours not having his dinner till 8pm)
He would often not see his family unless I took him there.
There was a few times I couldn't speak to him about it because he would instantly say I was being unreasonable and blowing everything out of the water.
Just before he left he went on a works night out (he said because I didn't text him I was in a huff really it was because I was unwell was just out of hospital had a 2 year old to look after) I picked him up from his works night out and we were supposed to go to the cinema that night but I had been vomiting the whole day so didn't feel up to it. I said to him to go but be careful as he had been drinking all day and didn't want him to fall asleep. He took this as me telling him not to go! When we got home I wanted a cuddle so I lay my head on his laptop and he was so cold. Little did I know it was because he Met the ow at the night out!
I am making myself feel sick here thinking I was he reason he left me and the babies.
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Hurtandconfused2016 · 06/06/2016 16:38
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