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I want to hurt my ex

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VikiC Thu 19-May-16 10:09:29

So we split up about 4-5 weeks ago. I thought I was going to be okay until today and I suddenly started to feel pent up anger that I have been pushing to one side. I've been trying to keep busy, but today i feel like I am going back into a depression and I don't know what to do.

I want to hurt him like he has done to me, I've been thinking of ways how but I can't he's in another country for a start. I know I can't hurt him because he never really cared about me, I just wish I could. Like when it ended I didn't even get a word in, he just kept speaking over me. I just have so many things unsaid, I don't know what to do with it.

What can I do?

ThatsMyStapler Thu 19-May-16 10:11:52

do nice things that you couldnt do with him - what food didnt he like, but you loved?? eat loads,

what did he restrict you doing (i dont mean in an abusive way, just in a 'we dont eat mushrooms on pizza because he doesnt like them' type way)

TheNaze73 Thu 19-May-16 10:12:50

Not a lot, as from what it sounds like, he's not bothered in the slightest. I don't like revenge per se, as its negative however, the best thing you could do, is learn to love yourself again and move on from him. Feeling better about yourself will make you feel like the winner and no one can argue a feeling.

KittensandKnitting Thu 19-May-16 10:14:21

Write it all in a letter to him, prefable hand written

Then burn it/cut it up into tiny pieces

Boomingmarvellous Thu 19-May-16 10:17:28

I would write it all down and express your pent up anger that way.

DisgraceToTheYChromosome Thu 19-May-16 10:17:44

Get some friends round for gin and vilification. Howl, scream, have toilet paper printed with his face on*. Don't brood, it'll eat you alive.

*This is actually a thing. Firm in the US does it.

VikiC Thu 19-May-16 10:23:39

I've been eating take away's alot because he wouldn't allow me to have them much, I have alot more spare income now I don't have him. I have a full kingsize bed to myself and no snoring, in a way I am happy, but I just hate the fact that whilst I am suffering he is living the life of Riley with mummy and his new Euro S***.

I don't believe in Karma I have seen too many people do bad things without consequence.

I did the letter thing, I even had the intention of sending it but i decided to burn it instead.

I just wish this feeling would go. maybe a few rounds on my brothers punching bag will do the trick, I could go with my dad to the shooting range and make him shoot a picture of him. I can't actually use the gun I'm not licensed XD

Agh I dunno, it's just a horrible situation that I have never been in before.

VikiC Thu 19-May-16 10:24:52

DisgraceToTheYChromosome Oh I didn't even know that was a thing that's hilarious XD

DoorToTheRiver Thu 19-May-16 10:25:47

You have things left unsaid that you feel you need to say but he won't listen. So write him a letter telling him everything you want to say to him but don't give it to him.

It's horrible feeling like this I've been there but he's really not worth your time. I hope you feel better soon. flowers

DoorToTheRiver Thu 19-May-16 10:27:30

Cross posted. Perhaps your brothers punchbag might help, any physical release is good.

VikiC Thu 19-May-16 10:30:48

Rather the punch bag than the wall. I'm just so angry an I'm going to snap if someone crosses my path today so I have made the decision to stay at home. All of my usual coping techniques are proving useless. I usually listen to classical music and do breathing exercises but it isn't cutting it because as soon as I stop the anger comes back again

DisgraceToTheYChromosome Thu 19-May-16 10:42:30

I held the punchbag for a woman at the gym once. Despite outweighing her by 80 pounds, I still fell over twice. Her expression did not invite comment, let alone questions.

ThatsMyStapler Thu 19-May-16 10:46:43

just get through today, tomorrow will be better flowers winecake

BirthdayBetty Thu 19-May-16 10:49:52

Send him a massive glitter bomb.

KittensandKnitting Thu 19-May-16 12:26:15

The anger will pass, it really will

My ex made me so angry in the end I actually realised I was angry at myself for letting him control me for so long - he too left to go and live with his mummy. I had so much more money as I had been supporting him, he was very EA.

I redid my flat, I ate loads, I drank loads, I wrote it all down and then burnt the paper.

In the end I had a one night stand and felt much better / this is not for everybody but it worked for me

Then I stopped being angry and moved on. Spent time doing "me" things

Have never looked back smile

RoomForASmallOne Thu 19-May-16 12:34:29

One of your coping mechanisms is working because you've stayed home today smile

You're protecting yourself, that's a good thing.

That angry feeling is awful, like all emotions, it isn't sustainable.
So, try to sit it out, it won't last.

RatherBeRiding Thu 19-May-16 12:41:13

"Living well is the best revenge".

Get out there and enjoy your life. Don't brood. Seize opportunities. Imagine if he hears from mutual friends/3rd parties that you are just fine - happy, socialising, doing well at work, moving on, looking great ........ i.e. you really don't give a shit that it's over.

He may not hear from mutual friends, but imagine if he did. Now imagine if he heard that you were upset, in floods of tears, not going out, missing work. What feels better?

SandyY2K Thu 19-May-16 13:36:03

What exactly did he do to you? Did he cheat?

There are numerous legal ways to get to him if that's the case. PM me if you want to know.

If not..... let it go and don't give him the satisfaction and show that you're better off without him.

AlanPacino Thu 19-May-16 16:46:49

Break ups are so wounding and we feel cut right down into our very core. If you do anything to hurt him it won't actually hurt him anywhere near as deeply as your are by the end of the relationship. Any attempt to cause him pain will make him glad he isn't in a relationship with someone who behaves like that when they're in pain. You're better of putting effort into you because an angst you expend on retribution will hurt you more in the end.

OrangesandLemonsNow Thu 19-May-16 16:49:55

There are numerous legal ways to get to him if that's the case.

And those would be what?

There is no legal comeback for cheating.

VikiC Thu 19-May-16 16:54:42

I can't take any legal action against him. We was never married (thank God) we just lived together. i have kept his TV, I'm keeping that and thats it xD

AcrossthePond55 Thu 19-May-16 17:10:23

VooDoo doll, huge pins, lots of wine (or gin), and a good friend.

BFF and I did this with a VooDoo doll she'd make of her exH. It was very cathartic. Especially the part where we threw him in the fireplace (i.e. 'sent him to hell') and watched him burn.

springydaffs Thu 19-May-16 17:39:31

Oh definitely get that anger out anyhow, anyway. Well, legal, anyway wink

It's said that depression is anger turned inwards. So get that anger out! xx

timelytess Thu 19-May-16 17:45:27

Punchbag or beat hell out of a big pile of cushions, whilst telling them everything you wanted to say to him.
Then, shower, change of clothes and off to do something pleasant. Every time you enjoy yourself, its a win over him.

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