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Getting over someone you met online who lives far away

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darkchoc26 · 11/05/2016 13:10

Hi everyone, today I wish to talk about my current situation with regards to someone I met on a forum. Me and her have been friends for nearly two years now and we've been good friends and have a lot in common such as personality, humour and music to some extent etc. There's also these sites that a lot of us on the forum use, plug.dj (now dubtrack) and rabb.it (music playing and browser/webcam sharing chat sites) and I used to go on those sites a lot but from around November of last year until March or so I stopped going on them due to college commitments and stuff but she didn't know this reason and she's often said that she misses me on those sites (I'm still a regular on the forum tho same as her). I was convinced to come back to these sites around late March and I was developing feelings for her beyond friends. I had the impression that she felt something for me which I guess is common for many people when they feel that way about someone and you misinterpret what they are saying and are just being friendly. In early April I PMed a close friend of the site about my feelings and asking for advice (we also have a lot of things in common which was really helpful)

We've said about whether or not she likes me in the same way, whether I like her as more than a friend or I'm just bonding with her more as friends (but I still have feelings for her and it's been like that for over a month now) her posts towards me just seemed like she liked me more than a friend, but I eventually told her my feelings which I'll talk about further down.

As I got closer to wanting to tell her I kinda made suggestions in my posts that I liked her and she seemed a bit confused but as the chat suggested she didn't suspect that it was about my feelings for her.

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After that we kinda should have discussed more about where to go from there. I kinda took the "rejection" quite well really, but I wasn't sure if she did like me in that way as she was suggesting she did see us as compatible but the location issue she highlighted several times and it seemed like she wished we were closer and would have given us a go. I think if she was interested in an online thing she would have worded it differently, but I do kind of agree, there's not much point in liking someone so far away (She lives in Scotland and she's a student at college like me)

A couple of weeks later she mentioned a couple of times in a thread about losing sleep and I was wondering if it was about our chat, but I still thought it might also be about her study struggles too but pmed her anyway. She said her sleep loss wasn't about the chat but about her workload which I did consider a possibility. I also mentioned about how our relationship should progress, she said she has been thinking about it a lot however. She wants to know what I feel about it all. She highlighted what j said in the chat about not wanting her to treat me any differently (i said this because it was kind of a way of me preparing her of what I was going to say and I told her this also) she also said she wasn't sure how to act around me after the chat, such as our humour and that things she might say might "hit a nerve" with me or something. I replied and said that she can of course keep talking to me just as she has been doing before.

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This suggested that she was hoping I would move on and stay as just friends, so I just said yes I would be OK with being just friends but mildly suggesting I'm still up for having feelings for her even with the location barrier.

Before my chat with her on FB my posts did seem a little enthusiasm about her and a couple of members seemed to pick that up and that worried me a bit as I thought she would feel uncomfortable with that. I have kind of helped by being enthusiastic about a couple of other members too to try and stop them getting suspicious lol.

But the reason why I signed up here is for advice on letting go. She posted a really pretty photo of herself on the forum and it didn't really help my feelings go away :') so I thought maybe some of you on here can help a bit. As I said there's not really any point in liking someone so far away and ego doesn't see an online thing as an option (and I don't really either but I guess I kind of do, it's hard to explain)

Sorry this is a long post and a lot of it is worded badly and isn't all that relevant but I think the more I post the better an idea you guys can get and help me move on. I did think maybe some time off the forum would help that but she's already said she's missed me off the external sites when I had my time off so to leave the forum for a while would probably upset her a bit (pretty sure she won't think it is because of her, even if it is, but it's been difficult for the both of us, I still feel bad about putting her through all this tbh.

I don't really date (and she's said in a thread she doesn't put herself out either and we've both never really had experience in relationships) it just came to me that id never met someone that I have so much in common with but I guess if we maintain such a strong friendship it could be something more later down the line possibly. I think right now I just want to be friends and stop thinking about it all so I'm not wasting time thinking about it but not completely getting rid of my feelings in case maybe she suggests something later on. I'm still such a noob with girls and relationships like she is really which I guess helps.

I guess her developing feelings is possible later on, but even if she did that wouldn't really change much as she doesn't really see an online relationship as an effective one. It could persuade her to be interested in a relationship ie a meetup every 6 months or so and online the rest of the time and maybe webcams and stuff but I'm pretty sure she's just wanting us to be friends, for now at least.

I also think this post she made around February time in a thread titled "Being single" may help:

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This is basically me but I didn't post anything in the thread, she's also talking about "real life" relationships here most likely.

If there's any questions about this I can try to answer them :D

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fastdaytears · 11/05/2016 13:12

You say you're at college, how old are you?