Hey all,
I have a DD whose 6, I've just turned 22. I've came out of an abusive relationship from DD's dad and as DD's dad is such a shit dad, I know eventually he would grow bored of DD and have no contact with her at all.
I stupidly went back to him a few months ago, fell pregnant (even though I was on the pill) but sadly decided to terminate due to the situation surrounding DD's dad. I regret the termination so much but I guess it's something I have to live with for the rest of my life.
I look at my life now, and I know that I won't meet anyone else and eventually have that growing family that I've always desired. I'm not confident at all, I don't go out much as it's hard finding someone to look after DD. I feel lonely and think about going back to DD's dad just for the sake that I won't be alone and have more children, but I know that I will never go back to him as his such a shit human being and not a loving father to DD at all.
I just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. Friends around me are pregnant, getting married, engaged etc and it's so hard not to feel envious of them.
Even though I'm only 22, I've already came to conclusion that I will most likely not meet anyone else and have more children, but I'm finding it hard to cope with the reality that DD will be my only child or that she won't have sibling. I constantly kick myself in the teeth that DD did have a chance to have a sibling, but I selfishly decided to terminate her sibling to be. I don't know if DD would ever forgive me if heaven forbids that she finds out.
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how to cope with the reality that I'll only have one child
Sunshinegirl2 · 23/04/2016 14:34
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