I have name changed as I think my husband knows my username as we both look on the sleep boards frequently.
Just need to sound off and seek a bit of advice / empathy / experience.
We have two young children under 3. Kids are great, but I for one am exhausted. We've moved house, I've had to re-establish myself in a new area and get a new job. The lack of a good night's sleep in nearly 3 years is taking it's toll. Neither are terrible sleepers by any means, but toddler requires someone with her to settle now, otherwise there are blood-curdling screams, and I know on the evenings she has been very noisy the baby wakes more frequently overnight. I know this is all part and parcel of parenting and will pass though.
We have some help from my parents although they are not in the same town. No help from his family and I find his side of the family distant to say the least.
My problem is that I have been in EA relationships before and find myself quickly becoming apologetic, reading (or misreading?) his facial expressions to mean that he's disappointed in me and generally getting stressed. He likes a clean and tidy house. I am not unhygienic but my tolerance for clutter is far higher, and in my books, kids bring clutter. He is happy to muck in when home to clean up but I always feel he is disappointed in me.
I think I am misreading him, and then wind him up, or get too anxious and then we seem to clash. Tonight he told me to shut up in front of the children which I think is not alright. Am I right here? Out eldest is very verbal and I feel really guilty that she saw me crying as a result of a disagreement he and I had about plans with my family.
I get very little time on my own, partly as I find it difficult to separate, partly as I don't really know many people to socialise with in the evenings (most of the people I know here are met through baby groups and are first time mums in that stage where free evening time is few and far between) and partly as I'm just so tired by the time the children are in bed I just either go to bed early or watch TV.
I am hoping it will get better. It just feels like the parenting is all consuming and I've lost sense of who I am. I have a good job but am still on maternity leave but I feel like I'm not making a very good job of being a parent or a wife. When DH and I disagree over relatively minor things it seems to trigger memories of things that happened to me in a past relationship, and I go into a spiral of worst case scenarios and end of imagining that we are breaking up, when in fact it was a minor disagreement. The constant need for tidying up the mess of weaning, dealing with pretty big tantrums from my eldest and just general supervision all the time is all-consuming and I feel I have no room left for someone else's needs. Is this normal?
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Miffyandme · 21/04/2016 19:51
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