I'm struggling. There is no one around to help, nor will there ever be. We're supposed to be self reliant aren't we, as adults? I was raped every night by my paedophile father until I ran away around 15. My mum let him. That's how I lost my entire family, no one believed me. No prosecutions were ever brought due to lack of evidence. He only got a years probation. I was then fostered by an equally abusive couple. And low and behold I followed the classic pattern and married an abusive man! I was forced to divorce in my late forties by child protection who said if I didn't leave my dh my children would be taken into care. My exdh did everything. I had responsibilty for nothing. Now I find myself all alone having to support dc and learn how to run a life at an age when everyone else has been doing it for decades. I just can't manage. I stuggle with the smallest task. I hate having to take responsibility for everything. I feel like a child. I don't have the skills to look after myself properly. The outside world has no idea. I'm not sure I'll ever be a 'normal' person. I just don't have it in me. My heart bleeds for lack of love. Is there a way out?
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I'm not capable of looking after myself, I want someone to look after ME.
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teenytinyweeny · 20/04/2016 22:17
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