I wonder if people could give me their views. I have been married 16 years, with my partner a total of 20 years and I have two children. Most of the time things are fine-I have always thought to myself that it is a bit of an 80/20 relationship in that everything is fine 80% of the time and then some of the time it is hellish. Actually it is probably less than 20% of the time. In the 80% of the time he is supportive and normal, and he has supported me through some very bad times. But I know that there is a pattern, and there always has been, that every so often-and it is not very often-say once a year or every 9 months, I get the feeling that he is really angry with me and watching me and I become really anxious. Often he will sink into silence for up to a week or 2 weeks-he will speak to communicate basic things but he won't really speak. When I ask what is wrong he will say 'nothing', and now when it happens and I ask he literally says nothing. When I have been really upset with him -even to the point of asking whether we need to divorce because I cannot make him happy-he has said nothing-literally nothing. He has walked out of the room or rolled over and gone to sleep. In the past this would end, or start with him doing something to provoke me (I did not realise this was happening and would be angry with myself for provoking him) and then there being a big argument. I used to argue with him a lot years ago but I avoid it if I can now. He has never hit me: he once threw keys at my head and they hit me, and he has once or twice shoved me-but the last time he was sorry. He has yelled at me in public places a few times (in 20 years! though the last time was a few months ago) but I have told him I will not tolerate this, it is too humiliating, and he seemed genuinely sorry. He does not like me talking about my work-he will say : 3 minutes and so now I try to avoid that. He has often said in the past as a joke that I am lucky to have him or he will make jokes about how I am difficult to live with. If I object to something he does or if I get impatient or if I do argue with him he will get really angry and yells that I am criticising him or blaming him. I want to stress that the vast majority of the time my husband does not behave this way though it is the case that I have to avoid anything that could be criticism, and though I do not succeed I manage it much more than I did in years past. I have gone to a counsellor and had one session and she seemed quite clear that this was emotional abuse-but, really? I do find that hard to believe given that it is not frequent(though it is patterned) and I wondered what people thought. He is a really nice person the great majority of the time-my friends think he is one of the nicest people they know. The children are fine and do not notice anything-really-they are really happy. This makes me think I am over-reacting. He recently got angry with me and told me he had had enough of the relationship and now he won't speak about it. I don't know what to do.
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