Yesterday it happened.
For the first time in just over a year my five year old refused to go with her father.
She was in hysterics and clinging to me and he looked like he had been kicked in the nuts by an elephant.
Me I was just bemused.
I want them all to be happy.
I facilitate and accommodate their relationship. She and my son I thought were unfazed by the split, unaware he left for someone else and the bitterness hid from them.
I am personable to their father, in fact I am more than that. We get on well, we laugh and I can allow him in my home and have a more comfortable and relaxed drop off and pick up time.
I think the problem is that he only sees them once a fortnight for 24 hours - his choice I would allow for me but he never offers and I have just accepted this.
He doesn't get in contact with them between visits and does seem to just skip back to his new life once visiting is over.
She notices more and more daddy isn't a big part of her life, I try and comfort her and tell her all the right things, that she is lucky that she gets to have "daddy day" and all the fun they have. I know that she would like to see him more, I have mentioned it but he seems as though he buries his head in the sand.
I think j have posted before about how awful he treated us as a family when he decided he no longer loved me - he was more interested in the OW than providing the children with an easy transition into new life.
He seems to have come around since November time and was constantly wanting me to join in on these "daddy days" - lunches out and booking tables at restaurants so we could all have time together.
I put a stop to that a few weeks ago as I felt it was confusing me so must have been confusing the children.
I didn't understand why the sudden interest or emails asking how I was and work.
I guess I am just ranting because I don't want to see my daughter so upset when she should be excited to see her father, I don't want her father so upset as he watched his daughter in that state and I don't want to feel like it's my fault.
I feel like if I were good enough he wouldn't of left.
If I were good enough my child wouldn't feel like she did yesterday.
If I were good enough he wouldn't have found it so easy to leave and not look back.
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Bambino1234 · 27/03/2016 09:59
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