For anyone who read my last thread, this is a sort-of update, but also I'm now interested in how best to move on and come to terms with what's happened, both for me and my DCs. Specifically, is forgiveness something that has helped other people? It's definitively over between me and DH - we had a good meeting yesterday, and will be moving on to as quick and simple a divorce as we can manage. He's still living with his OW - as he has been for the past seven months - and says he's very sorry for everything. I think his sorrow is genuine. We're lucky not to have any financial issues likely to cause problems during or after the split - he's going to go on paying his half of the mortgage, and has offered to help out with additional funding if I need extra to support the DCs when they're at uni. I'll sell the house when my DM dies, and we'll split the proceeds. I was terribly upset and angry last week, but seem abruptly to have moved through that, and now just want to forgive him so that he can come to the house to see the DCs, and so that I can stop thinking bitter things about what he's 'done' to me. It feels like a positive thing for me, in the context of my realising that I'm no longer in love with him and actually am far better off without him (thanks in no small part to those who posted on the previous thread). He did nothing dreadful to me beyond the obvious lying cheating etc etc; and although the DCs suffered somewhat (particularly my DD) they too aren't that angry with him any more. I think that as a family none of us 'do' anger particularly well.
BUT, am I kind of failing to properly 'process' the hurt? Will setting it all to one side and trying to forget about how the past eight years were, be damaging in the long term? Have others found forgiveness helpful in the short- and long-term? I know that very many splits are riven with bitterness and rage because of things that have been said and done. I don't feel that we have that problem, either. We're both reasonable adults, and I feel that being able to look back on thirty years together without terrible pain will be beneficial both for me and the DCs. If we've both moved on to better things, what's to be gained by dwelling on past hurts?
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decomm18 · 10/03/2016 20:36
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