My mum committed suicide when I was 1 & my dad died when I was a baby too. I lived with my grandparents until I was 4 then put into foster care with my brother as social services said my grand parents were too old to look after us.
My foster parents had 3 children of their own & were a Christian family. They treated their own children differently. We had no Xmas or birthday presents, no new clothes & were sent to school with no lunch. Own kids had everything. We lived in the country & social services only visited on a year when we were at school.
We had to say prayers & go to church twice on a Sunday. We had to say grace & thank the lord for the food in our plates & eat everything even if it made us vomit. They hit us too. To everyone outside people thought they were lovely kind people..
I ended up anorexic & now have to have a really expensive injection every 6 mths for my bones as I have osteoporosis.
I left my foster parents in 1986 but every day it still affects me. I feel so jealous of anyone having a mum & really wish that I had that.
I have 3 children & try to be the best mum to them & go without things so they can have them.
I suffered PND after each child & now have long term depression controlled by medication. I am under a psychiatrist & have had years of psychotherapy but nothing helps me get over the abuse.
Does anyone have any advice? I don't live in the UK now & have to pay for any treatment or medication privately.
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Abused by Foster Parents & can't get over it
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Aquamarine70 · 05/03/2016 15:55
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