I am not sure if this is a brief infatuation or if it's something else or how I make it go away because it's driving me absolutely mad!
We met up and I wasn't at all interested in him, but we ended up together one night and I found it was one of the best nights of my life. Not just sex wise but just every click on every level.
We never enjoyed a relationship really because right off the bat we were both playing hot and cold and neither of us wanted a relationship with the other one (we both have our reasons) and I hated the way he made me feel so vulnerable.
All we did was fight, not talk for a week or two and then one or the other would message or call and we'd end up right back where we started.
Jumping all over each other, and not just sex, but long hugs and kissing like it just felt the best it's ever felt with anyone. Both of us have dated other people and just end up drawn back like magnets.
This went on for six months or so until I firmly pulled the plug a couple of weeks ago as I felt it wasn't going anywhere. By that time I had come around to the idea that we should just be together but he hadn't.
He's very practical, I am more of a romantic and there are definitely very real hurdles to us being together properly but I did feel like I just wanted to try.
He says he feels that way too, can't forget me, finds it hard to feel attracted to anyone else but at the same time he does keep going on dates with other people - which makes me feel absolutely awful.
I have also been dating other people, some are completely wonderful. Currently had a couple of dates with a doctor, handsome, very attentive and keen to grow a relationship and all I can think of is this other man.
I feel absolutely bereft without him. Like a sinking feeling in my stomach and every time my phone goes I am so sad the message isn't from him.
I can't contact him, because I was the one who ended it (I wanted more) and he knows what I want so contacting him is just me accepting less than I want and it won't work unless he wants the same.
Practically speaking he is the last person I should feel this way about, but I feel really just so mopey without him.
Am I in love? an that just happen without you conscously thinking it over?
And if i am in love, if he does realise he doesn't want to lose me -will he come back?
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Can you fall in love with someone completely against your will and judgement?
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tootootoomuch · 25/02/2016 22:33
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