I don't know if this is the correct topic but it's the one I usually read.
I am having an awful time at the moment, I have 2 DC ages 11 and 7. The 11 y.o has a different dad and the 7 y.o dad and I have not a very good relationship, to say the least. He has never wanted to live together and just picks and chooses, I think it's selfish and for a quite a while we've been on the verge of splitting. Stupidly we had sex twice over New Year and since i'm off my pill I took the morning after pill both times. But on 25th Jan i found out I'm pregnant. I was all over the place, but after a few days of tears and guilt and horrible feelings since I feel I love the baby already, I decided on a termination, because of many many reasons practical, financial etc, there's no way I could go through with this pregnancy realistically.
Since around the 1st Feb I've been having horrendous all day sickness. I had similar with my first I remember although not as bad as this. Back then I lost a ton of weight, lost teeth, was sick a lot all the way through, really anaemic. This is worse. worse )-: . I can keep literally NOTHING down apart from maybe a few digestive biscuits a day (none today) and I've been averaging a pint of sipped fluids a day and at least keeping that down (again, not today, today EVERYTHING has been coming up). I've lost count of how many times I vomit or retch - probably about 20 x a day. I'm only peeing a small amount twice a day or so and the other thing barely at all (sorry if TMI). I can barely sleep as I'm up about 3-4 times in the night most nights being sick. Have lost about a stone in 10 days )-: and was only 8st to begin with. Every time the sickness comes the cold sweats and shaking and dizziness.
I feel so weak. "D"P has done nothing to help at all. He's not even working and lives 5 mins away but I've been dragging myself the 2 hours a day walk to and from school with kids, housework (eldest been helping), cooking (boak!), everything, being sick in the street and in shops etc. He just says "I know" when I say he's not lifted a finger. My dad is coming over tonight cause I couldn't face an extra walk to the bank, but I've not told anyone in my family it's anything other than a bug and they live an hour or so away anyway.
I have the first appointment tomorrow for the termination, but I've been told they won't do anything on that day, I'll need to wait for another appointment (have been waiting since 2nd feb for this appointment). "D"P is picking up the DC whilst I go.
I don't know what I'm asking really, I just feel like I cannot go on like this, I'm so weak from not eating and even when not actually being sick, the awful nausea just builds and builds 24/7. I feel like I can't cope anymore )-; , and I'm no wuss but I've never felt as ill in my life. I feel like the sickness is overtaking everything, even my emotions about the termination etc, I just can't focus on anything other than getting through the days and I'm starting to get panic attacks as well and worry HOW ON EARTH WILL I COPE IF THEY SAY ANOTHER 7 OR 10 DAY WAIT. I feel so stupid and let down by the father. I wonder if I'll ever get over this.
Sorry I'm feeling really sorry for myself and rough I even have red spots round my eyes from pressure. If anyone has any advice or support to give it would be welcome, or even just support to get through this. Feel so alone.
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I don't think I can take any more ): please advise me.
sosickandtired · 10/02/2016 18:50
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