toxic person

[remembermewhen]

My child's father has appeared back in my life,
He's not in a great place,
Doesn't bring much to the table.
Little one thinks he is great so that's good.
Him & me are a train wreck.
After almost 3 years I've jumped in head first & now I can't get myself out of it.
I suppose I'm just trying to write it down, get it off my chest.
I know I'm on a hiding to nothing & it's going to be carnage.
I tell him I can't be with him, he tells me.. Yet we continue to hang out & sleep together.
I've never had such strong feelings for anyone. Crazy love for him.
I don't want to turn my back on him but he really is just a waster & I don't want dragged down with him so I think it's the only option.
I'm pretty sure if I cut him loose he won't bother with the little one.
Anyone any advice or encouragement to help me escape this situation?

[surereadyforchange]

I think the fact that your last sentence contains the words 'escape' highlights that deep down you don't want to be in this situation.
Do you think you can't do any better?
My advice would be to work on your self esteem and think of your child. You say if you cut him loose he won't bother with your child?
That's awful! Dont mess your child around as well as yourself. He's playing with you. Neither you nor your child are toys to be picked up, played with and discarded.
Keep telling yourself you are both worth more.