Long backstory, not sure where to begin but here goes: DH and I have been together for 16 years, married for 8. Have 2 DC under 4. The past few years have been somewhat difficult looking after DC although things are improving over time. DH is great with the kids and usually does more of the household chores since he is more tidy and I've been working long hours the past year.
We had some arguments in Dec and a long conversation about whether our relationship has a future or if we're just staying together for the kids. DH has ED and the GP he (finally) saw didn't want to prescribe anything and DH has been reluctant to see another GP so our sex life is almost non-existent and I've given up trying to initiate since he feels pressured.
Also I think DH has been at the very least flirting with female colleagues over the years (seen various texts, eg I missed you last night but many happy memories kept me company). When challenged, DH has denied, promised to maintain better boundaries, claimed colleague is a flirt and promised not to delete texts to prove that he has stopped. However, I occasionally check his phone and have noticed that he has been deleting texts from another female colleague recently. When challenged, he said that he has the right to a private life (eg. he wants to be able to vent without me seeing what he's said) and has been defensive.
Anyway, after a recent episode, we had another talk about why we're still together. I said I wanted to make it work but the following day he called me to say he wanted to split up and let's talk when he got home the next day (DH does shift work so is not home some nights). He said he still loves me and cares about me but the only reason he would be staying is for the kids. He felt that he had been doing so much for me and still I wasn't happy with him and he had nothing left to give. On the other hand, I feel we barely talk about stuff other than the kids / practicalities and he has such lively text banter with his female friends.
We sat down to discuss finances, childcare, etc. Initially he said he was thinking of divorce instead of separation. I suggested how we would divide assets (I manage all our finances) and custody but when asked his opinion, he said he was unsure and seemed daunted by it all (he hadn't thought about how it would work). He then asked for more time to think about it (eg temporary separation) and left for the night.
The next day, when I came home, he said he wanted to try to make it work but I suspect in his mind that means me trying harder, having more date nights and sorting out his ED. He won't promise to stop deleting his texts and in my mind, he hasn't even acknowledged the turmoil he has created over the past few days. I was actually making plans for my life post-split and I don't 100% trust him anyway despite his assurances.
I just have so many questions in my mind really. Is he / are we having a mid-life crisis? AIBU to check his phone? Did he cheat on me? Why did he change his mind?
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DH asked for divorce then changed mind 2 days later
Alphyn · 23/01/2016 09:02
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