Went out with OH for NYE. DS went to his dad's, it started off a nice night but he got drunk (which he very very rarely ever does, maybe twice in 2015)
Anyway we went to a restaurant after some drinks and it was nice at first, but then he started talking really loudly about the waiters and I asked him to stop, then he started talking about things I didn't want to talk about last night, really bad negative stuff, so I asked him again to change the subject but he wouldn't and just carried on.
We left the restaurant and I wanted to go home but I'd left all my things at his house including my keys so I had to go back there. All the way back he didn't talk to me at all. We got in and I said I would sleep on the sofa until a point where I could get a taxi (it's a really busy party town and there'll be none till like 7am) and he said fine and stomped around for a bit and went to bed.
I went to the toilet about an hour ago and he woke up and called me into his room, so I went in and we had a talk. I said I just didn't think he was happy with me, because every day he has something negative to say. He said that was bullshit and started basically listing my faults then shouting at me really aggressively . I said I was done talking and was going back downstairs at which point he went mad, grabbed his phone and I swear he twisted it up with his bare hands and threw it over my head, so I walked into the hall and he got up and threw the phone down again on the floor near me.
I ran downstairs and I've locked myself in the conservatory. I'm still stuck here till my taxi at 7. It's freezing.
He hasn't followed me down after doing that and has no idea I'm locked in here but I'm scared and I don't want to come out of here because he scared me.
I'm not usually this pathetic.
He's been really miserable all over Christmas, causing arguments over nothing and saying hurtful things. I've been patient with him as he said Christmas brings back bad memories but now I'm thinking i should have left him because now I'm in a situation I never thought I'd be in.