I was going to name change but I don't post very often anyway.
This will be long as I don't want to miss out any details that may be relevant.
Dh and I have been together nearly 19 years, married over 17 years. We've two children(14 &11) and lead a generally happy, easygoing life.
For about a month he has been on shifts at work meaning he is starting late at night (11pm) and ending very early morning (4/5am). He sleeps all day but wakes up to pick ds up from school.
The week leading up to Christmas was difficult as it was so busy and we'd stuff on all week so hardly saw each other. This led to an 'atmosphere' between us which wasn't anyone's fault really, it just happened.
Anyway, we talked about it and were OK again - our usual selves, until yesterday.
My family were here for dinner & when they went home he said they weren't coming next year as I'd been anxious all day (it's true but its the guilt thing makes me invite them)
He seemed angry anyway and then dd announced she wanted to be vegan. She had been veggie for about six weeks earlier in the year and didn't eat right, despite us ensuring she had vitamins, nuts, seeds etc.. but following an unrelated hospital visit she was told she was anaemic. She decided to eat meat again. (I let her make her own decisions)
Anyway, this is so odd, dh started shouting that she wasn't starting this nonsense again, told me to tell her she wasn't doing it again. I said I was staying out of it (thinking if it went the same as the veggie way it would sort itself out)
I went to bed & he must've had more whiskey (he had a few earlier on but wasn't drunk) he came to bed and started on about me not backing him up, how we should show a united front. I don't know why this happened, it didn't seem like a big deal to me, but he went mad. Said we all treated him badly, expected him to look after us and cook all meals and he wasn't pandering.
Then he got out of bed, started to get dressed and said he was going to kill himself. I just don't know where it all came from. I tried to calm him down, he was shouting and shouting all these crazy things that is so so unlike him.
I lifted my phone and said I was going to call the police as he was frightening me. He said he'd never hurt me, but took my phone off me.
I finally calmed him down, I was shaking and felt like being sick. He cried all night.
I swear, I have never ever seen him like this. Ever. It was not my dh. I don't know if it was the alcohol, the fact my family had made me feel anxious, dd announcing the vegan idea.... I can't work it out.
He apologised today, a genuine apology, he loves me, he loves the children, neither of us can explain what the hell happened.
A little bit of my heart is broken. I'm not going to LTB over a row - especially one where he just seemed possessed.
Any advice on how I can stop thinking about him threatening to kill himself? He said we treated him badly, I want to bring this up with him in a calm, rational way - can anyone advise me?
Thanks in advance, all advice welcome, well done on getting this far.
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Row with dh - so out of character and I feel so confused
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Evabeaversprotege · 27/12/2015 21:04
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