Sorry, this is all a bit of a jumble. My thoughts are in disarray.
I've been with my DH for 5 years, married for three and have one DD who is 2.5yo. Since I've known him, I've informally diagnosed DH with anxiety and depression and have been gently encouraging him to seek treatment, which has been open to and has followed through with to some extent. His brother was diagnosed with OCD and something else (I suspect depression though it's not talked about openly by the family) and is fairly heavily medicated, I understand. His parents are completely toxic and I suspect his father also has some undiagnosed mental health problems. They have been to stay with us recently and it's getting harder for me to bite my tongue as FIL bullies and represses MIL to the point where she's afraid of her own shadow.
In the past, DH has abused alcohol as a self-medicating/coping strategy and sought some counselling and hypnotherapy for that at my insistence a few years ago. He now rarely drinks but every now and then the pressure of his job (he's a teacher) and his undiagnosed and untreated anxiety gets out of hand and he goes on a bender (maybe twice a year?) or drinks in secret. He's also recently admitted to binge-eating when under stress and has steadily gained weight this year despite our family dropping carbs and processed foods from our at-home meals. DH and I recently had another big talk and he has agreed that the drinking and overeating are 'symptoms' of a deeper 'problem' (anxiety) and that by seeking treatment for alcohol abuse only he did not get to the root of his issues. He has recently seen a GP and been placed on a waiting list to see a psychologist, I hope this will happen in the New Year. (Incidentally, the GP got hung up on the overeating and suggested DH could have lap-band surgery to control his weight?? I was horrified!)
DH 'talks a good talk' and is very effective at minimising/justifying his issues and I wonder if talking therapy will actually do much to help. He normalises to a ridiculous extent and we often argue about how he is able to reframe, indeed, completely rewrite situations to make him seem more rational/less emotional after a disagreement. This seems to be occuring more and more frequently and I wonder if, by opening up and starting to recognise his problems, he is 'protecting' me less and 'showing' me his mental state in a more truthful way?
Nearly every day we have some issue where he is 'overwhelmed' or 'feeling wonky' or needing to talk through something. In most cases I try and be supportive but generally impassive as he has form for ruminating and trying to get me to do this with him. Yesterday I totally lost my temper and accused him of trying to make me into an "empty vessel" who will nod along to his irrational nitpicking at a hypothetical situation. He WOULD NOT drop it and I ended up screaming at him to stop talking and that I would not engage in his crazy co-rumination. It's a pattern I see with his parents where they talk around and around a completely normal and not-stressful situation to create drama in their lives and I will not be bullied into recreating this harmful dynamic. Afterwards, he is remorseful and sees the irrationality of his thoughts and claims to "not be doing it on purpose." Generally I try to name his behaviours: I use the pleasant term of 'scab picking' as he worries away at things and tends to do this in moments of general pressure like when I asked him to do one or two household/childcare related things today while I'm at work. He dropped me off and was moody and short for the whole journey. I ignored the atmosphere and sulky expression but as we said goodbye he asked me to go over the tasks and then said, "oh, is that all? Well, I can do THAT. I was just feeling like I had a really busy day today but it's really not much, is it?" This inability to self-soothe makes me worried he might have a personality disorder.
I guess I'm just seeking some reassurance (how ironic) that therapy will be beneficial and that identifying and naming his behaviour and refusing to co-runimate with him is the right thing to do? It's causing a fair amount of stress in our relationship. I have been seeing a counsellor on my own to talk about some of this but she's away until after Christmas and I'm feeling some pressure. I love him very much but am finding him hard to live with at present.
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AGapInTheMarket · 23/12/2015 02:33
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