Hi all,
So, first I need to explain a bit about the background to the problem and why I'm posting here. I'm Dad, married for 9 years, with my wife for 15. I work 8 hours a day and travel 4, I get up at 6am, leave at 6:45 and return at 7:05pm as there is no real work for me locally. My wife is disabled, she needs two replacement kneecaps but can get around a reasonable amount.
At the time of writing we have 2 girls; a 2 year old and a five year old. Let me be clear, I love them all, dearly, repeat; I love them all. So over the last few years, I've had a battle with DW about routine and getting the kids to bed at a sensible time; 7pm (it tends to vary between 8-10pm by the time they settle down) so that a number of good things can come of it;
- I can do all the housework in the morning; its not a problem, I don't mind. If the kids are up early, I'm happy to play with them, do the housework and get breakfast. They get me
- We can work on our marriage, We need to spend intimate and loving time together (please don't take that to mean sex, while it includes that, for me it, also means, playing board games and simply talking over coffee, the stuff that 'builds' a relationship).
- We can save to move to a larger house; currently we live on a lot of takeaway and I have to buy a lot of food during the day because I'm too exhausted by our problem to prepare food for us.
- Its making me ill, because I don't get enough rest to manage the travelling and working, because they go to bed so late, now, I don't mean they have to sleep, but to quieten down, and play together. We're losing money because I'm becoming too tired to go to work on certain days.
So, to cut a long story short, I pleaded for many years - it gone on for 4 years now - about this but couldn't get her to appreciate what it was doing to us. I went through moodswings, depression, irritability and for me, the relationship ebbed away over time. I got bitter that she was ruining this wonderful, beautiful marriage was going to finish over something so trivial. I gave the emotional, financial and loving support all the way. I would end up pottering about on my own from when I arrived home until bedtime, while DW stayed upstairs. Friends tried to tell her, as did our neighbour, her response would be "its not a problem for other cultures and people we know", my response was "The people I know don't live like this, but regardless its a problem to US and that is what matters". I got up earlier this week and realised I wasn't in love with her anymore and felt the need for a permanent seperation, I'd been pushed to far and not quite didn't want to fix it, but inside there was no real relationship to fix anymore.
So we talked, and I agreed to give it one more go. I don't want an opionion on me, or DW, bad or good; that doesn't help anyone. I want to try and put that uglyness behind us, rebuild the relationship as if from day 1; we work can work on that, but only if we have time together to do so. How, can we get the kids in bed and settling earlier? Please can you guys suggest anything? What works for you? The older one, now just annoys the little one to wake up, while if the little one is awake, she upsets the old one. This post is the most heartfelt plea I've made.