I've NC for this as it could be identifying. For that reason I'm being deliberately vague about BF's situation.
After my EA marriage I was single for a couple of years, I did the Freedom Programme and other 'work' on myself.
I had some forgettable dates then I met BF in May 14.
Things were great from the outset then in May of this year BF had some devastating news which sent him into a spin, usually a calm person these events caused anxiety in him that was off the scale.
BF's GP prescribed him antidepressants in August, I can't remember the name of them together with Zopiclone.
The events that happened in his life mean that now instead of spending lots of evenings and weekends together as we used to I only see him about 1 weekend in 3.
He is spending time sorting out these other things, that is the right thing to do and I'm fine with it.
The thing is that since he's started taking the antidepressants he isn't the same person, that's to be expected and that's ok but whereas he used to be kind now in the rare time I do spend with him he makes jibes at me and he can be vicious and downright nasty.
Having lived through an EA marriage this really does push my buttons, after a weekend with him the nasty things he has said stay with me.
I think the antidepressants make him verbally clumsy, there's no filter on the things he says but there are other instances I can't excuse as easily.
I know this situation will pass and that he won't be taking the antidepressants forever but it's going to be difficult to forgive and forget some of the things he's said.
Before all of this we were talking about moving in together, things were serious.
On MN it's often said 'when someone tells you who they are listen' but how much does that apply to someone who is taking medication?
I've tried to be factual in this post but I'm beating myself up about this. I'm not sure I can be with him anymore but I am also aware of what a heartless cow I probably sound but I'm really not. I wish I could make everything alright for him.
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Should I end this? Or wait it out?
ofthefirst · 08/12/2015 21:43
Thank you for your replies and not telling me how vile I am for considering leaving someone who is in crisis 
The bad thing happened in May 15, he was given diazepam to begin with and although he was in a state he was his usual pleasant self. It was when he started the antidepressants in August that he changed, it's not just unpleasantness, he's become a risk taker too and he never was before.
We'd spent a lot of time together in the year before the event including holidays, most evenings, weekends. He could have been lulling me into a false sense of security and on his best behaviour but I've been over everything time and again and there were no signs at all. He really is like a different person.
No AF you are right as always
, I wouldn't have tolerated this at all.
it's going to be difficult to forgive and forget some of the things he's said
Don't. Why on earth should you.
Value yourself more than this! You could be out there finding someone really nice!
But the bullet and bin him OP, you're hardly likely to regret it
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