31, single and starting to wonder if I'm the one with the problem.
I've had 2 'serious' relationships in my mid and late twenties. Last one ended when I was 30 and we were due to buy a house.
Now its Sunday, Im in my rented flat that is freezing cold because i can barely afford heating as well as the rent (I know i could move but im so used to living alone that i would be hesitant to move in with people i dont know...did all that at uni and in early twenties). My friends are ALL in relationships and I feel embarrassed inviting them round to this shithole of a place. I've also started developing feelings of jealousy and this isn't a feeling I am used to...I don't want to be jealous of my friends and I was always so happy and content with my life that I didn't need to be.
I have a good job and hopefully finances will change next year for the better, and I have a decent amount of friends. I don't have many hobbies where I would meet people...mainly because I work late most nights and weekends are spent with friends and family or dating.
So....I started online dating at the start of the year and I've dated a lot. Met lovely people but nobody that I've been desperate to meet again, and despite their efforts in following up and calling and wanting to go out again, I just lose interest.
I feel so alone and as if my efforts and dedication to a family life and home are wasted. Some friends tell me they wish they could have the single life for a bit and open a bottle of wine on a sunday night without looking after kids or cleaning their three storey homes... but I am so bored of this life. It isn't fun anymore and I would rather be bathing my 3 year old than getting pissed in an evening.
I feel so alone...alone in paying the next bill...alone in wanting cuddling up on the sofa, alone in having someone to look after you when you are ill. At 31, it feels like I've missed my chance and didn't grow up fast enough to be settled at this age, and I really, really want to be.
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I feel so alone - jealous and there's no way out I can see
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umbrellawork5 · 22/11/2015 11:15
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