Hi folks. New to this.
Married for 17 years, 2 kids (7 & 12). For the last few years things have felt kind of...empty between us. We've actually discussed divorce, but decided instead to go to Relate. (Mindful of the terrible impact divorce would have on our lives, our children, our finances etc.) The sessions have enabled us to air a lot of stuff that we have a hard time talking about when it's just the two of us. Some weeks I leave the session feeling like the relationship can be saved and is worth saving. Other weeks I feel that the best thing to do is to end it.
We kind of avoid each other at home, we have separate hobbies, different interests, different personalities. If he goes out I am glad to have the house to myself -- not really sure I miss him very much. Something about the way we communicate...our interactions are just very quick and short, a few sentences each. Not arguments exactly...more like tiptoeing. I sometimes hear people say 'Oh my DH is my best friend, I can tell him anything, some nights we talk for hours!' and I just don't feel that way. Or I see people look at each other with such love, such affection, and I feel a pang of wishing I had that. (Our sex life has been pretty sporadic lately). Or I meet new people and there's this refreshing sense of coming alive, of feeling myself open up. (Not sexually, just sort of feeling relaxed, more like myself.)
We've been good together in the past, we've been through a lot together and we are both committed to our kids. He's a great father -- really great. Possible he likes me more than I like him. Feels horrible to say.
I feel like I am in a marriage that is maybe a 6/10 and I worry about the wisdom of chucking it away in the hope of finding a:10 (or even an 8). Is there anyone out there who has done this? Any words of wisdom/advice would be welcome.
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My marriage is maybe a 6/10 -- should I end it?
All0vertheplace · 21/11/2015 22:09
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