Just walked out. Sat in a hotel room. Got two children (2 and 5), been married 6 years, together 10.
I'm just so tired. Tired of being a mum, being a wife, being in the workplace. I don't feel like I can do it anymore. I can't deal with everyone needing me all the time, with never having any head space. I can't deal with the cleaning and tidying. It feels like a never ending battle. I don't want to have sex, I'm too tired, all touched out by everyone wanting me and I just want to relax, read a book, go on FB, whatever, I just don't want to give anymore.
I'm tired of the same fight going round and round. Who do more in the house, whenever I ask him to do something it gets turned back on me with how much he already does do and that he picks up after me too. I knew he does a lot, he is wonderful with the children, cooks most meals and does some cleaning. But it still feels as though if I didn't do all the picking up and clearin. Ash that I do the house would be a total tip - dirty, messy, old nappies and clothes lying about, just dirty.
I'm tired of being told I'm mentally ill when we argue, that I'm selfish and lazy and that I only think about me.
I've just been told that I can't run away from my responsibilities and that Im only making it harder for myself.
I'd be happy for him to have the children all week and then I have them at the weekend, I've had enough of them too. I can't cope with the neediness. I don't play with them, I just encourage them to watch to so I can do things I want to do, like tidy the house, do the ironing, play on my phone for a bit.
I'm just so tired. Please just give it to me straight, am I just being selfish and running away. Should I deal with it and just get on with things? I just don't know anymore.
I'm sorry for the rambling I don't know how to say what I feel
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Am I running away
AmIRunningAway · 07/11/2015 16:00
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