I don't know why as he is a complete arsehole but! I still love my dcs dad.
He left two years ago and is living with his gf (ow) and I miss him and if he wanted to I would let him come home. I know he still cares about me but wether he loves me is a different story I feel so much calmer when he is around and I feel complete.
He and his gf aren't getting on atm and I don't know what to do.