Hi, I hope some of you wise ladies can help. After years of being in an unhappy marriage (both of us unhappy), I finally took the decision to end our marriage. We had split before but this time permanent as I couldn't put myself through it any longer or confuse our children. I desperately tried to hold our marriage together for years as I didn't want our children to grow up in a separated relationship - rightly or wrongly. My H has suffered from depression, anxiety, very low self-esteem and has behaved badly towards me for a long time. I tried so hard to support him, get him help but by and large he refused. Lots of passive aggressiveness to me, anger towards our children. I make no apologies for ending our marriage, it took a huge amount of guts, we got into debt, I am struggling to make ends meet but I knew our lives just couldn't carry on in such a dysfunctional manner. I might sound harsh but I'm not, I won't go into loads of detail but hand on heart I know I tried to support him.
I just need some perspective now on whether I am being unfair. RL friends tell me I am being way too nice. DH attempted suicide, general feeling is it was genuine, a few months ago and a week after he moved out. Since then, I have been his emotional support constantly, all day long it feels like. I am trying to keep life normal for our children, hold down my job (which carries a lot of responsibility) as I need to keep a roof over their heads, deal with my own emotions, grieving for the end of our marriage, but he phones and texts constantly every day off loading about how awful life is for him. I have asked him to stop but he takes no notice. I feel like I am going to combust!! I cannot take much more! But I have to stay strong as I am the one keeping life 'normal' or whatever that is for our children. Help!!! I have tried all the helplines for people supporting others with MH issues, but to be honest they are no help. And to be further honest, I'm not sure how much now is MH issues and how much is manipulating behaviour as I am finally taking control of my own life.
I used to be scared of what he would try if I didn't constantly be at the end of the phone but now I think he is just using that to make me constantly communicate with him. But is that also unfair of me? I am very conscious that I don't belittle the depth of MH issues and how they can make people act, I'm just saying I'm not sure for him anymore which is MH, which is controlling and which is just unravelling as his life isn't going the way he wants .
My previous threads are around which explains in a bit more detail.
I hope that makes sense? Thanks all x
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everonwardsagain · 04/08/2015 14:22
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