I have name changed but I am a regular.
I have been seeing the most amazing man since the start of May. He doesn't play games, is always consistent, is open, seems honest and expresses his feelings easily. Early on he wanted to see lots of me, things seemed to move very quickly from just dating to him saying that he thought we had something special. I have gone a long with all, swept up with it.
I have this fear though that simply will not go away. We were meant to be seeing each other yesterday. He said he was tired and stressed from work and that although he wouldn't be on good form I could still go over and see him. I said no, it was ok and that I would go and see a friend and we could talk later. This I did, but I couldn't help myself, I decided to tell him it was over. He wanted to talk but I said no, I didn't want to add extra levels of stress or pressure to his already busy and stressful life and that we should leave it.
He sat all evening waiting for me to respond, and I did and not in a positive or very kind way. He has had a lot to deal with recently, Dcs in another part of world, travel, work which is very difficult at the moment, renovations at home.
I'm sure he is a good guy, I am certain I am not being played, and yet I still have this fear that I am going to be hurt I take people at their word and when they break it, even some little thing and even with good reason, I feel I can't trust them.
This morning I woke up, the first thing I thought about was him, how hard things are for him, how mean my reaction was, I feel very ashamed to have probably made things much worse for him, and I am sad because I think I may have thrown away something special.
What can I do?
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OverEmotinalmoo · 22/07/2015 11:29
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