I have name-changed for this but I've been around for a long time. Back story is..
I have been with H for 9 years and married for 7. DS is 7. We haven't had any affection in 4 years and by that I mean no sex, no cuddles, no hand holding, no kissing, no nothing. Our marriage is over but, until last Christmas, I didn't feel strong enough emotionally or financially to go it alone.
I told him a couple of weeks before Christmas that I wanted to separate and, while he was very upset, this seemed more about how DS would cope, how his parents would react, where he would live (the house is mine) and what he would drive (the car is my company car). There was no mention of me, how he loved me, couldn't be without me etc which made me realise that he felt the same about our marriage. Subsequent conversations were better and he accepts the marriage is over.
But he's still here, living with us. He asked for six months to enable to him to save some money and we also stopped pooling our money so that he could save (he brings home 4-500 more than me a month). Also, I've been paying all the household bills (mortgage, gas, electric, sky, water, council tax) for the last two months to enable him to save even more. The cost of the car is also deducted from my wages so he's not contributing to that either. He pays half the food/fuel, half of our couple of remaining direct debits and half of DS's stuff. I can afford it (and will have to when he leaves anyway) so it's not a massive problem but I am starting to feel bitter about it.. He has a huge debt repayment each month and says this will affect his ability to afford a flat but he CAN get the monthly amount reduced so I don't really buy that one.
The problem is that one of his parents has been very ill and it was touch and go whether they would survive for a while. He absolutely refused to do anything about moving until they were better and I just let it carry on as I was upset too. But it looks like they are going to be OK now and I want to get things moving as I want to start moving on with my life.
Reading this back, I realise I sound like a prize mug but it's really not been like that. I genuinely don't want to hurt him as he's a lovely bloke, a great dad, looks after me and DS by cooking etc (although can't see obvious things that need doing around the house which is annoying) and it's been an awful time for us. DS was ill and hospitalised recently too which didn't help.
If I mention him moving out he either rares up at me and makes me feel shit or he gets upset and makes me feel shit. But I'm really unhappy now and want to reclaim my life - how do I go about it? I cannot just confront him and tell him to leave as I don't want to upset him, but I need a strategy (almost to make it seem like it's his idea) to get him looking for flats to rent before I end up hating him and yelling at him to just leave.
What do I do and how do I do it? Anyone been in this situation?
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My marriage is over but he's still here..
Stuckandneedsomedirection · 19/07/2015 15:19
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