Hi,
I'm not sure where I'm going with this so forgive me if a little scrambled but I need to vent :
Does anyone feel that now they have split up their just living month to month etc what I mean is financially I'm ok but just ok- no money to plan things for future with, no big dreams to be able to fulfil.
I'm kinda resenting the freedom of dreaming an planning that my separation has taken away:-( I went out with school mums last night as a one off and out of ten of us I'm the only one in my shoes at 40.
Their all talking about their trips out, holidays planned, extensions an builders- their nice office jobs and it just makes me feel utterly inferior.
I've got a nice but small trip planned for Weymouth in October but that's as far as I can stretch. My house is nice area and its presentable an tidy but needs tarting up here and there(a mans hand )
I work in emergency services and quite often am wading in the lowest of low of society.
In short I guess I feel like I'm standing still, treading water.
And it goes without saying that the lying cheating ex is presenting a happy outlook etc life is great (although I know the truth, up to eyeballs in debt ) etc
So I'm sorry if this is a bit garbled but anyone out there feeling same?
An whilst I'm here, does anyone ever feel the urge to really go no holds barred shit spilling on their ex? We had some mutual friends who he still sees a lot in same circles and I'm sure he's created I'm an ogre- but they think he's a nice bloke with nice excetutive job, little do they know the debt, the lies and stealing money he done to get there- nor what a shit father he is, puts his job before his son, an playing child's games on phone when seeing his son the x2 nights he's meant to- basically a very selfish man.
I'd just love for all those people to know what he's truly like and to get some rough justice. I hate that he created this mess but I'm still here holding the parental fault whilst he lives like a single male.
Has anyone else felt like this- if you have let me know! I know one day it will change but I just guess I'd like to know when :-( thanks .
I've no one to really talk to anymore either, my friend moved couple hundred miles away and we re loosing contact now she's changed her life up,there's a part of me doesn't want to bog her down, let her fly (so to speak) an because of shift work it's hard to make new friends!
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Brownsofa · 11/07/2015 20:51
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