I have been fighting a loosing battle with DH about his cannabis addiction for years. He smokes every day and needs it to be 'normal'. Every few hours his mood will start to darken and he goes off for another. I have begged, threatened to leave (and pathetically not), screamed. He admits he has a problem, he wants to stop but he can't.
A few years ago he tried coke. I told him that I could never live with him doing that. He promised me he didn't do it, I told him again I would leave if I ever found out he was lying to me, that coke would be on another level of unacceptability.
However, I do believe he has been doing it recently. He has had a few days where his moods are horrific, he shouts really badly at me and DD, is totally unreasonable and drives like a crazy person and he needs to sleep a lot.
I have a heart fault that is getting worse, I may only have a few years left, it has been really hard for all of us. I think this is his way of coping.
I know what I should do. I don't want DD to be messed up from his bad moods and shouting. I don't have the strength to help him quit, I have tried with the cannabis and failed. I should leave him. But I have tried before and came back when he promised he would stop, I am ashamed that I haven't found the strength to stick to my word.
Before I jump in and tell him it's over, I need to be strong enough to fight his begging and promises. I'm worn down from my illness and mentally from being on edge with him. I can't talk to anyone in real life at the moment. Please if anyone can give me some advise, I really need it.
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Tryingtostaystrong · 08/07/2015 09:25
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