So I finally went to the doctors today to get help with my mental health, was diagnosed with PTSD a few years ago but wasn't really ready for help, so I refused CBT and hated the meds they put me on.
On the outside I'm confidant and I have a stable life, good job etc. But my head is a mess, it's like I have the TV and the radio on full blast constantly, I can't concentrate, I have horrible nightmares, my mood flips in and out of depression in an instant, I'm anxious and feel constantly stressed. I struggle to feel 'normal' emotions, empathy, guilt etc. My family (DM and DS) have 'diagnosed' me as a narcissist. I was honest with the doctor and answered all her questions as honest as I could, I didn't get a diagnosis label but I was in such a flap by the time I'd had to talk everything through I pretty much ran out of her surgery without asking. Been put on citalopram and put forward for CBT and I'm being assessed in a month.
I told DM and she just said "oh, you'll have social services knocking on your door then"
I now feel like shit and wish I hadn't bothered going. I just want to be fucking normal.
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Dogsarebetter · 06/07/2015 14:48
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