But I'm still with my DP. The one who has been separated for ten years but is still married and is verbally abusive whenever he drinks himself into a stupor, which is rarer than it used to be but still happening.
When it first started happening, I would cry myself to sleep. I don't do this anymore. I think I have actually run out of tears.
Last night he got drunk again and picked a fight with me where he insulted me a lot and called me names.
He has apologised today but I just can't be arsed anymore.
There is a lot of history, more than happy for you to read my past posts to get more of a general context.
I'm terrified of leaving. I know ill miss him terribly. I know that I'll also feel really alone in the world and very vulnerable. I give of a tough appearance but I'm very very scared.
I'm 30.
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Grapeeatingweirdo · 29/06/2015 21:03
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