Without waffling on, I stopped taking my anti depressants thinking I was fine but instead went into a spiral of depression, feeling trapped within my marriage and not wanting to be a mum to my kids. I couldn't see what was happening at the time and it resulted in me making contact with a man and going to meet him 5-6 times for coffee...that's all it ever was. However because I was enjoying the feeling of escapism and unable to live with the guilt, I told my husband that I had been meeting this man and thought I might have feelings for him. I then walked out and spent 2 weeks at my mums, leaving him in a right mess, in his own with the kids. We made arrangements to separate, but then he persuaded me to try again and we are having counselling. I have since gone back into my tablets and I no longer have any contact with the man involved. We booked a holiday to rekindle our relationship and I thought things were on the up. The issue is that a few days ago he came home from work and said he can't stop thinking about how dishonest and deceitful I was and I'm not the woman he married anymore. He wants to try but doesn't think he can get past it. I have tried to explain that I don't think my mind was in the right place while I acted that way but I can't seem to get him to understand. I have always been such an honest person and I'm struggling with what I've done and now feel that I'm about to lose everything.....any thought please?
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