Last Sunday evening, h and I sat in front of the TV, both tired and getting a bit grumpy I could tell. H about to get up very early the next day to go and work away for 3 days.
We were sniping at each other a bit and I did think it might be better if I just went to bed as it felt as if we were brewing an argument.
Sadly I didn't (go to bed) and an argument did ensue - basically about who clutters up the house more (we were watching that programme about obsessive cleaners). It went something like this - I said that if I had our neighbours' garden (full of stuff - broken sheds etc) I would empty it of everything and start again, h said that no, I would fill it. Instead of just ignoring this I took the bait and said that no that wasn't true and that any of the junk there was in our own garden was his (exercise machine protruding out of a bush because he has dumped it there, rusting wood burner etc..). He said to give away the exercise machine if a metal collector came by, and that he would sell the wood burner.
Can't remember exactly what happened then, but I was still reacting to the dismissive and uncaring tone he had used when he said that I would fill the garden with stuff. I said that there was loads of his stuff in the attic (converted and also our bedroom), he said that the attic used to be really empty and nice. I said yes and that it is now full of his stuff. He said like what? Now this is weird that he would even ask as it really IS his stuff up there (I do have boxes stored in the eves, but very little out in the room) - think a massive desk covered in paperwork, an exercise machine he never uses, our daughter's drumkit (bought by him and which she never uses), a coffee table, a wobby exercise thing you stand on (sorry, don't know what they are called), a keyboard which is on the desk and a portable easel. The only input I have in the room is a bedside table on my side of the bed and stuff on it. There is also an armchair.
So I listed these things. Don't know how on earth he could think that it is me who has filled the attic but then he does have a blaming, narcissistic, obsessive, paranoid believe what he wants to kind of streak.
Anyway, for balance I did say that the front room downstairs IS full of my stuff (which it is) and he started laying into me about that. It is true that I have / have had, an issue with "stuff". Magazines, books, and boxes of the kids' school work etc as well as old photos which I don't know where to put as there is no roof space to store them in.
The conversation must have been pretty heated and we must have been referring to each others' rubbish (tbh I can't really remember) when h suddenly drops the real clanger and says to me "YOU ARE RUBBISH".
Now my question is, is it normal for arguments to end in insults of that type? My guess is he wanted the "conversation" to end and this was a way of getting rid of me - which it did because I then went to bed. Or worse - is this what he really thinks?
He went away the next day without saying anything to me and as usual has not contacted us (which he rarely does while away). In the meantime, his words "YOU ARE RUBBISH" are still ringing in my ears. Luckily I have recently started working again after a long long time being a SAHM, so my mind is occupied, but my self esteem is not great etc.. and comments like this do not help.
I know all of the above sounds very petty and stupid. Probably symptomatic of our unresolved many issues / resentments etc... However I still want to know how other people would feel about being called rubbish. For the last two days I have been telling myself that of course I am not rubbish, just because one person says so, but I have a niggling doubt that he might be right .
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H told me I am rubbish - warning: long description of fairly tedious argument!
wouldyoubeoffended · 09/06/2015 22:20
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