I would really like some objective opinions.
DP and I have been together for 17 years. We met at 25. At the time we both worked in low-paid service industry jobs and earned similar salaries. Everything was split down the middle- food, bills, entertainment etc. We lived within our means and the relationship felt very "equal" IYSWIM.
Over the years I have struggled with depression and anxiety issues, mainly due to abuse I experienced as a child. My DP had a rough idea of what happened but I didn't discuss it with him in great depth because I'd got into the habit of burying it. So it manifested itself in other ways. I struggled with self-confidence and assertiveness and this affected my working life. I continued to work in fairly low-paying jobs and over the years my salary didn't really increase that much.
In contrast, DP's career has soared. He has worked for the same company since we got together and has risen through the ranks to the point where he now earns about 40K more than me. He has therefore been able to save a lot, he pays for our holidays and most (not all) of our meals out, etc. It also means that when things need replacing, mending etc he finances it all. I pay most of the utility bills and vet and cattery fees and he pays the mortgage and a few other things.
Three years ago I had a breakdown. I had been going to counselling sessions to try and resolve my past, and these had stirred up very painful memories for me that ended up affecting my working life to the degree that I made a few huge errors at work and was fired. My DP was very supportive; it wasn't easy for him to have to listen to the things about my past that I now needed to talk about, but he was loving and patient.
I was unemployed for over a year. During this time I was in a kind of slump, coming to terms with my childhood issues and sort of wallowing, I suppose. Our relationship became completely imbalanced. I was totally dependent on him; whereas we'd been equal partners, I became like a child and he was the parent. Of course it also meant the entire financial burden was on his shoulders, with all the stress that entails.j
18 months ago I found a new job. Still a fairly low salary but higher than I've earned before and with lots of opportunities for promotion. I love it. I have had CBT and have come out of the slump I was in. These days I am much more confident and I feel "back in the world" again.
My DP has always been a bit "tunnel visioned". If something needs doing, he will focus completely on that to the exclusion of everything else. Which can be a useful trait. By contrast, I am admittedly a bit crap at noticing things that need doing. Over the years it's been a source of frustration for my DP and I have tried to be more focused.
We now have a situation where we both need new cars. He is buying them both and I am going to pay him back via a standing order. I have researched models, prices etc but because of how things have always been with us, and because of his tendency to always assume the burden for everything, he has decided that he is buying 2 cars and it's causing him a lot of stress. We've also just had our bathroom renovated and he paid for this.
Last night we had a row because he was getting so stressed out about the car situation, and the fact that he pays for all the big things and feels he has to sort out everything and manage every situation. I was trying to explain that I do what I can, I'm not the person I was a few years ago, I very much appreciate his high income and I am always grateful to him.
For most of the time we have a good relationship. We have a lot of fun together, shared interests, great sex, and a very deep friendship. But this money thing keeps cropping up and I don't know what to do.
Sorry for the length! Opinions welcome!
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