I know, I know, I have no idea why I did it. I haven't seen him for 8 months. I will never see him again.
We are fighting out legalities of financial settlement through solicitors and I truly hope it ends soon so I can sell this damn house full of memories, finalise my divorce and really start my new life!
So I googled him on images. For 11 years, he was gorgeous, tall, professional looking and well groomed. He's been with OW (who is stunning by the way), for almost 18 months now. When we were together, people commented that he looked like a film star.
There was one photo of him on a professional site. He has overgrown hair, a big ginger beard (no offence to those with ginger hair meant), his shirt collar looks creased and he looks so different that I almost scrolled past him.
Don't get me wrong, looks aren't important, I've certainly learnt that - but I loved him completely and would have stayed loyal forever.
I suppose I'm posting because the last time I stupidly did something like this, I almost didn't make it through the night. Maybe I know now that my divorce is close and a chapter is closing.
If he was on a dating site, I wouldn't even look at him. What a waste. I just think it's all sad. I'll never understand how someone can cause a world of pain - get what they want and end up looking like a tramp.
It's just sad
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