I've posted previously in the summer, when my relationship with then DP broke up. Thread is here
Long story short, we were trying for a baby, I got a new job, we stopped trying but accidentally fell pregnant. I then miscarried. He said he would have suggested abortion anyway. Generally not a nice time.
Anyway, I had some lovely advise on here, I moved on and started dating a new man. He was lovely, completely spoilt me rotten, treating me like I was the best person in the world.
Now here comes the idiot-ness. Something changed in me, and I no longer felt attracted to this new guy. To the point that hearing from him was really irritating me, so I called it off. Explained I'd really enjoyed our time together while it lasted, but didn't feel it could go any further. Not sure what 'switched' in my brain, but there we go.
Then who should I hear from? ExDP. He invited me to stay at his house one night this week, made it perfectly clear it was just for sex and..you guessed it..I went.
What am I doing? Why couldn't I appreciate the kind, caring man when I had him? I actually said to my friend after staying at ExDP's - 'it was so nice to sleep with someone who wasn't going to try and cuddle me all night'.
Now I don't really feel anything. I just want to be on my own (felt a bit smothered by new guy so making the most of having control of my time) but WHY I chose to spend my time with someone who treated me so badly, I have no idea.
Has anyone been in this position before?
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Haveimiscarried · 20/12/2014 13:17
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