I just had a meltdown about plans for my grans funeral.
My gran was incredibly close to me and my siblings. We grew up with her and my mum. I am executor and power of attorney along with one of many brothers. I am the only girl and my mum is in ill health, so I have done about 70% of the funeral arrangements. This is despite the fact that I am only just back at work after an operation.
My DH has a very responsible job and is self employed. He has had man flu on thur and fri and took 2 days off. He has felt poorly no doubt, but was well enough on fri to meet a client for coffee and walk the dog, for example. This has pushed some urgent deadline related work onto Monday morning. Funeral day.
When DH said to me in a stressed out tone about ideally needing to pop into work for an hour or so on Monday, I completely lost it. This leaves me getting two older daughters and myself ready, plus thinking about the dog, meeting the caterers, loading up car setting up the hall ( from 11.30). The hall is 30 mins away, as is dh's work. This would leave me with having to drive my mum and dc instead of DH. Or DH would have to do 2 hrs driving in total and put in time at work, and somehow be there to help at the church. All by lunchtime.
DH pointed out that I haven't told him that much about the arrangements and therefore he didn't know what there would be to do on the day. I think he feels resentful of being asked to watch the children with my sil last weekend whilst visiting family discussed arrangements in another room.
I feel upset that it wasn't a no brainer for him to be with us all day to give emotional and practical support. I admit I haven't given him a blow by blow account of everything as I've been utterly swamped by it all.
DH and I are feeling quite distant from each other, rather than close, since the death. I think DH feels that I'm shutting him out, but in reality I am just too swamped by all the arrangements and so exhausted that I am going to bed at 9pm ( still recovering from my Op, too). This means that DH and I have little time to talk and we are both under pressure in different ways. I don't feel I even have time to process my own grief.
I feel sad that there is this distance between us, and feel DH resents the stressed out sometimes mono syllabic person that I sometimes am being right now as I just try to cope.
I'm also trying to organise Xmas day online, inbetween the funeral arrangements. Yet I'm obv unreasonable to let the cracks show by being the least but tetchy.
I have a sibling staying over Xmas who would normally stay at my grans, so that might cause more tension between DH and me.
Any advice?
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YellowFern · 20/12/2014 11:51
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