I'm better now .
I am with my lovely DH and there are joyful moments and people in my life.
Things that helped (but only slowly, over time, and with setbacks along the way) were:
- planning lots of things, no matter how small, that I enjoyed doing. Just making sure every single day had something to look forward to.
- exercise - walks in fresh air, yoga, getting fit
- looking after myself in other ways - keeping my appearance good, for example, so that I could keep some pride in myself.
- psychotherapy. I resisted it for a long time, and at first it was painful and destabilizing, but it helped enormously in the long run
Oh, and cutting ALL contact. Not looking at his FB page. Not looking at photos. Cutting all 'real' connection with him so that what I was fighting to get over was 'just' the stuff in my head, iyswim.
Good luck. It was horrific. I have been through things in my life that on paper should have been much, much worse than the break up of a relationship. But I can honestly say, nothing has ever hurt me so badly or damaged me so profoundly as that break-up. X