Hi
I need to offload, I feel so guilty. I've been with DP for 13 years and we have 2dc - 7 and 4. My dss who's 15, has lived with us for many years too and I think of him as one of my own.
Me and DP have had issues over the years, To cut a long story short, it turns out he is on the autistic spectrum, as is my dss and ds(7). DP got his diagnosis this year and his anxiety and anger were also attributed to the treatment by his parents (emotional and physical abuse) alongside the ASD.
I've dealt with a lot over the years - the anger (now attributed to things that aren't his fault) has been tough and certainly emotionally abusive if coming from someone who experienced the world not on the spectrum. The lack of empathy, the lack of organisation, not wanting to do anything social - all has been so hard - when I'm the opposite really. But we've rubbed along and there's a connection - we've had good times and bad. DP has also been on anti-depressants for 3 years.
But over this year, it's become too much for me - I just can't handle being full time breadwinner, doing all the life / family organisation stuff including special needs stuff for the two boys.
I've had so little appreciation for what I do from DP and have been accused of nagging him to do things and then accused of letting him fail but not reminding him to do things.
I'm exhausted all round. I've tried to take the pressure off DP and now most weekends it's me and the kids doing stuff while DP is grumpy and playing computer games all day.
So I finally called it a day. He hates me, and thinks I don't understand autism and am being horrible for blaming him for behaviour that comes from that. He's off and grumpy with the kids all the time and I don't want them to see that as normal family life. Or that this relationship is normal either - I think I owe that to be dd(4).
But I do feel guilty - I'm his only friend and carer. And I'm walking away. Feel sad too.
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NoPinkPlease · 09/12/2014 21:39
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